EDIT: This matter has not been decided on yet. I will update my journal with a real update soon!
So I've been considering this for awhile. I'm fairly certain I'm going to have to just quit GMing and quit RO almost completely. I mean I love RO and I...used to love GMing but now its just... Not worth it. Ever since I screwed up huge and then my msn was hacked so someone could frame me and try to get me fired... I guess people really hate me that much don't they? And its not just being hated, trust me I've been hated on a lot. I just... the thought of logging into RO makes me depressed and it never used to be like that. I feel like I'm going to a full time job or something and I'm not getting paid in anyway for it. Yes the full GM is nice being able to do anything I want to THAT account but I don't have time to level, to hunt, to generally DO anything. I sit in town and be 'Kawaii' as all my haters call it, because I get so many PMs flooding my chat bar its impossible to multi-task. I can barely keep up with all of the PMs that come my way let alone conversations outside of that and then DOING anything.

I know I've always said that I'm stubborn and I'll go down with the ship. Trust me, I WANT TO FEEL LIKE THAT AGAIN. I just have no reason to. I take most of the shit, I'm hated and I'm afraid to do anything with my Full GM account after screwing up. I just can't help thinking 'What if I screw up so bad I get banned or something'... I've been so loyal to LLRO for so long and done so much work and cared so much its unreal. I get absolutely NOTHING in return, nothing of real life value in anyway. I also get no 'thanks for all the hardwork'. Mainly I get 'that's cool, now do more work' or 'YOU FUCKING SUCK GO DIE CUNT'. I can see why previous GMs have quit and I'm still wondering why some of them haven't after so long....

I wanted to make it through the summer at least but I don't think I can. I just don't have the time to be doing it, its fun to play not fun to run. Yes, I do suppose this is completely selfish of me. Seeing as that means only one GM will be left to take care of Legend. Believe it or not, I feel horrible about that >.< I'd say more but a lot of stuff is confidential and unlike some previous staff members, pissed off or not I will not say anything. Loyal till the end eh? No matter what I won't entirely quit LLRO, I'll still hop on probably every one in awhile. I mean that is inevitable! I can't give up poor Vasi that easily<3 I just.... ugh. I honestly have no idea what for sure to do. I really want this but at the same time I don't and I'm actually seriously agonizing over this.

In other news, I have a commission for a Steampunk hat for a Wedding! I am excited about that at least. I still have other things to finish >.< Anyway, an answer/opinion to my dilemma would be great.